It's been a while for me to post. Since the last time we have gone through May 4th which means one more year without Alex. One more without his smile, getting to watch him pitch in baseball his energy around us, his loving caring personality, and especially one more year without him being with his parents, sisters, cousins and grandparents. Really the only thing I have to say is hug your babies tighter whether they are 2, 12, 15 or 50, and make sure the people you love know it. Sometimes we chose to fight battles that are not important or even our battle to fight. Also remember God is Good!!!! and "Everything will be OK even if it's not!" one of my new favorite things to say.
***************************************I learned this from a scripture in
Isaiah 43: 2 "When you pass through the waters;
I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers,
they will not sweep over you,
When you walk through the fire,
you will not be burned;
the flames will not set you ablaze.
What this scripture is saying to me is that God doesn't promise that we won't go through trials, sometimes these trials seem that nothing good and come out it. What he is saying to ME is"Tracie everything is going to be OK, even if it's not. because I will carry you. Even if you lose your son Tracie, you won't be alone and it will be OK. Excuse me for preaching.
I was recently asked to speak along with a small group of family and friends family gathering after one of Alex's closes friends Katy Jacobs was Baptized into our Lord and Saviour. Her mom Kerri, has chosen a wonderful way to help her children start their new life with Christ. We celebrate their "Zero" birthday. No sins. Family and friends gathered to say wonderful things about Katy, and everyone of them true. I wanted to convey to her that although being a Christian is the most wonderful thing in the world it's not easy. I pray I did this with encourgement and did not discourage. I bascially told her what I believe above about Isaiah 43:2
***********************************I chose these pictures of Alex because in all his determination shows. He was this way all the time whether he was praying, playing or doing homework and especially if he had done something wrong and was trying to weasel his way out. These were taken at his Kindergarten Fun Day, where each class competed against each with different obstacles. He along with his friends were proud to bring the Kindergarten Fun Day title to Mrs. Curtis's class that year.
I think I have learned from his determination and a pressing through this life without him. I am happy even though I don't have him on this earth. I have a wonderful husband, two wonderful daughters and a loving supportive family and friends. This is all from God because he is GOOD!!!!
